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hello people!

this is my 70th post and ive decided to MOVE.

@ http://driftedapart.wordpress.com!

haha nah im nt a copycat or sth!

at first still thought could wait until got abt 5posts or whatever before announcing.

but then lately everyone all lyk changing to wordpress liao.

if i announce any later scarcely ppl will think i follower -.-

hahaha. kk wantd to leave blogger lyk longlong time ago.

at least livejournal or wordpress seemd more..

organized.

ohwell. im still new to wordpress.

the functions etc seem alien to me.

kk relink bah!

5:17 AM
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horoscopes are freaky accurate -.-

DAILY HOROSCOPE for ARIES:
14May [today!]
Although you will derive benefit from applying your knowledge in a practical way today, it's challenging to keep your mind on point. Each little distraction can set you off on a circuitous mental meandering, causing you to waste precious time. Instead of being hard on yourself because you are not as productive as you desire, give yourself permission to daydream.

15May [tmr!]
You may be feeling less sure of yourself now as a dilemma pulls you in two different directions.
On one hand, you know what you need and it's not very complicated at all. But reaching satisfaction is more complex than you wish, for there is a conflict between your goals and what others can offer you at this time. Today, your happiness might depend upon your willingness to temporarily accept a variation of your dream rather than what you actually desire.

WEEKLY LOVE HOROSCOPES for ARIES:
The Moon in your 7th house of partnership makes this an excellent weekend to connect with another. Take time to be romantic, though, instead of rushing an individual who requires gentle coaxing. Your willingness to discuss things in detail and make compromises, if needed, could be the key ingredient.

i never believed in such things! but c'mon lah.
ta1 yi1 zhen1 jian4 xie3, zhe4 me4 zhun3.

hai2 neng2 bu2 xin4 ma3?

haha today's nt much of posting.
more lyk koping here and there!
ya this is sth i found hahaha.

如果你變成天空
那…

想你的時候我就看著天空
晴天就是你心情好的時候
雨天就是你在哭泣
夕照的天空就是你臉紅害羞了
澄靜的夜空就是你溫柔地抱著我。
─美嘉

恋空。
总觉地爱情是甜蜜的，美好的。
但看完这部电影，爱情，这两个字不再是甜蜜，不再是美好。
爱情便成一个永远都无法改变的感情。
一旦付出，不管将来会是寂寞的，
痛苦的，你还是会不顾一切…

都想拥有它。

maybe looking good;

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14 May 08
diana: cheer up cheung kayat! dont think so much ok.this is life, you've got to accept it. hahas.(X
'kay_: yea yea. hahaha. acceptd it lyk eons ago. nah its jus at some point of life where you wna rant it all out. and its cheung ka YAT. nt cheung kaYAT. noob! lollll.

11 May 08
WENXIN: smile yo!
'kay_: whoa. you everyday see me in sch smiling still nt enough hur. hahaha.

best denki!: HELLOOOO
'kay_: ohh hi.

7:49 AM
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now i get it that its nt abt urself only.

it requires both party to understand and maintain.

yups. its much clearer now.

but maybe its jus for now;

7:48 AM
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sry but i feel lyk blogging for the 2nd time today.

i used to think tt problems like coping between the both,

might cause unpleasant feelings among you two.

seems like i was wrong.

you were able to understand whenever she needed someone t talk to.

seems like its the other way round.

looks like im the one who cant cope with urs.

there are so many ppl you have to save,

tht i feel neglected as a result of it.

i needed someone today too.

why werent you there for me like the way you promised to?

i should depend less on others

and rely more on myself.

aft all they are nt obliged to be there all the time you knw.

promises unkept;

7:15 AM
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well HELLO PEOPLE.
RISE AND SHINE.

hahaha! its almost a month ever since i blogged,
guess i didnt had the urge nor interest in blogging anymore.
until i came acrossd some people's blog.

i was lyk whoa.
the language used was so expressive,
i meant its was lyk while i was reading through the post,
i could put myself into his or her shoes,
or more lyk i was feeling pretty much the way he or she felt.
and this inspired me to continue blog hahaha.

its really been a bad period of time lately.
things arent really going the way its expected,
and the not-expected things are happening.
and the not-expected = not-goodie-things.

idk what the heck is wrong,
but no lemme getcha into ur head tt im nt emoing or whatsoever first.
haha i think theres still this tendency tt firstimpressions last forever and ever -.-
weird way things work huh.

my english paper 1 AND 2 have been so badly done,
which im alrdy waiting for "punishment dealt" by my dad.
lolll. my compo was out of point, and the letter format was wrong,
while the compre was done in a rush.
summary.. ya i didnt knw need to write on a separate piece
so i ended up writing on the same piece of paper as my compre =.=
then when collecting paper then found out i was in trouble,
so i teard out and stapled it to some other unusedpaper
(actually its kinda used. jus tht i markd out the other irrelevant stuffs)

aiyah im reallyreally worried tt i might breakdown on the day
when we all get back out english paper.
its not lyk im nt mentally prepared,
but its jus rather disappointing you faild the most important subject.
i risk being ranked in class frm the bottom you knw.

besides the irritating studies,
my social life doesnt seem to be in place either.
ppl who were emoing few months back,
due to reasons like they fell out with their friends or whatsoever,
i rmb telling them tt its nt the end blahblah,
maybe its nt ur fault blahblah,
maybe it IS ur fault blahblah...
arghh. im really disgustd by my own words.

i feel.. out of place.

the rest seems to be taking pleasure in making fun of certain things
which i feel it should be respected and nt mockd at.
so i ended up moodying or whatever.
dont ask me. idk.

now i feel as if im drifting apart with you guys.
but aft all it doesnt matter to you ppl anyway.
cos its jus nth in ur eyes.

sometimes i feel rather pissd at the thought
tt you ppl are nth but a bunch of feelingless freaks.
im nt being demanding, but why cant you guys be more sensitive to emotions?
cos i hate to be the clown, the one who's mockd at, the one who's acting retarded,
jus to gain ur attention.

nt tt i dnt wna heck care,
but why is it so difficult?
maybe its jus me huh. im the only one tts hard to get along.
omg this is the first time im actually feeling nt well abt GUY friends.

hmm and what abt FEMALE friends?
lol guess i hardly interact with any nowadays.
btw happy 16th bdae michelle haha.

what if ppl tt you treasure most suddenly decides to leave you.
how would you feel?
nope i dont wna blog abt this much,
she might nt like it.
ahh maybe i should jus change to wordpress.
i feel lyk locking the whole of this post up.

and its nt the part abt leaving tts depressing.
its the fact tt we're drifting apart which is affecting me so much.
i cant say for sure whether things will improve in the future,
but for now, i knw its inevitable tt we'll have nth much to talk.
dont have much in common you see.

in the near future, you'll get what im trying to say here.
sry but im nt in the mood to reply taggs.
thanks for even bothering to make this blog lively.

absence doesnt make the heart grows fonder,
it only makes it grows colder;

6:00 AM
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cant believe it myself too.

the concert's all over alrdy.

we were all working hard towards a common goal.

okay maybe nt REALLY tht hard.

erm somehw i felt tht we didnt put in as much effort for syf haha.

so immediately when we went off stage,

i jus felt.. empty.

whoa. haha. really!

i mean its lyk ITS FINALLY OVER man.

its the END alrdy. but it jus DIDNT FEEL lyk the END.

ahhh im contradicting myself.

the feeling's complicated.

but still the fact remains tht the concert's over.

rmb the times we had so many long hrs of practices,

nah now there wouldnt be anymore for us.

saw many previous batches leaving us one by one.

it was nvr a nice feeling hur.

i mean once we leave AHchoir, there will no longer be anything to bond us together.

we will definitely drift further and further apart.

the hardest thing to accept is tht my MON, FRI, SAT

or maybe THUR (used to be soloist prac) is gna be free frm nw onwards!

NOT. it will be fully packed with studying and preparing for olvls -.-

it was only lyk ytd when i steppd into the choir.

when Ms Seng first confiscated my phone

(cos i didnt knw cannot use during ccas lolll)

when i found out Mrs Soh and i were frm the same pri sch.

when Mr Tan first entered choir and became our choir teacher IC.

when Mr Yong left aft teaching us our first song "how could i say thanks"

when Mr George Tan announced he was leaving in June.

when i missed out the Welcome Party.

when i skippd the first Farewell Party because i went back to HK lol.

when i missd out my sec1 Sham Alam M'sia Trip also because i went back to HK.

when i became sec2,

i STILL missd out the Welcome Party.

(stupid hur. i nvr even attend my OWN welcome party,

and ive to pay for other subsequent welcome parties)

when practices were maintaind by Xinjun.

haha the sch havent found any conductor yet.

until towards the end of the year Mr Toh first took over.

and Meixuan&LimYing&Vivian&Marcus&I joind the comm.

and then Mrs Soh announced she was leaving too aww.

so when i became sec3,

FINALLY i attended the Welcome Party.

(cos i was the one of the organizers COMM MAH haha!)

basically we all chiong 3songs

"everyone sang", "kasar mie la gahi", "meplalian" for SYF.

and we were able to secure a Gold With Honours.

Ms Seng left us tht very year as well.

So Mr Tan was the SOLE SURVIVOR.

and Ms Li Chun Xia became our choir teacher IC,

but soon aft she transferred to chinese orchestra

then Mrs June Yeo joind our AHchoir family.

and it was time for sec4s to step dwn.

elections took place, and Meixuan&I were 'promoted'.

haha with a whole lot bunch of sec3s entering comm.

i can still rmb when MrTan first talkd us

everyone was lyk innocent and inexperienced?

BESIDES ME and meixuan. HAHAHA.

so aft tht the sec4 year was tough.

juggling between studies and choir.

we managed to tahan and hang on till nw!

and nw the concert's over alrdy!

will meixuan&i be rmbd for leading choir to the success of the concert?

jus lyk hw weiyang will be rmbd for leading us to GWH in SYF?

nah thts nt for me to control anw.

it had been a fun 4years.

with different people.

with different batches.

the only thing tht was common was the love and passion for choir.

(yea i knw this sounds gay -.-)

ya saw this on audreyyao's blog (by grace hur? haha):

"the ONLY best thing about Anglican High throughout this 4years have to be the cca"

yepp somehw jus dnt feel lyk leaving choir you see.

i still rmb hw ppl mockd at marcus&i for joining choir in lowersec.

lolll i wantd to join badminton or tabletennis or ncc de if i rmb correctly.

nah nw i think im so attached to it tht im unwilling to trade it for any other cca.

yups nw its finally our turn to leave.

it will be us who feels reluctant and sad in farewell.

4months ago we were still the ones bidding gdbye leh.

ironic feeling.

whoever's taking over the comm,

and whatever's gna happen to AHchoir,

jus wish you ppl all the best.

we wnt be there to stand by you guys and join you ppl anymore.

haha its our last official 2wks.

(according to the sch's policy zz)

and the vry fact tht theres nth left to pull personA and me tgt,

arghh i dnt wna think abt it..

ur WED and SUN are ALWAYS occupied.

i used to think tht MON THURS FRI SAT were..

i had an ADVANTAGE over them!

hahaha awww nw nth's left.

i think this is one appropiate time

whereby everyone thinks tht its okay for me to emo hur?

hahaa. so long AHchoir.

it had been a long, yet short, memorable time with you.

shall post the concert photos nxt time.

i havent receive ANY lahh.

and you're the sole reason

why i continued striving;

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7 Apr 08

roy: haha gr8 performance gay really feel prou or u guys. shld catch up some time:)

'kay_: liar liar pants on fire! you dno say hw many times u COMING back. NAH-ah when did you come back? tsk! u btr come back SOON. and when i say SOON, be REALLY SOON. cos we're stepping dwn and leaving SOON le lahh!

8 Apr 08

mei xuan: HAHAHA.stupid president(:

'kay_: then ure gna be even more stupid hahaa. silly vicepresident.

5:25 AM
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WHOA. its SO LONG since i last bloggd.
okay actually today's nt really 3rd April.
i had jus saved the post on this day,
so tht nxt time i can come back and post again.

why issit so?

erm, cos its my bdae? HAHA.
nothing much though lah.
how special can bdae can get anw?
NAH WRONG.
IT WAS REALLY SPECIAL HUR.

wna say thanks to the PPL who msgd me in the morning.
oops its lyk a week alrdy.
i forgot most of the names.
so shallnt post in HERE lah.
thanks for even bothering to stop pause and msg.

and to PANDORA.
how you spam some stranger with "hey SEXY"?
whoa whoa whoa. tsk!

thanks to the comm for preparing 2cakes!
(actually it was some miscommunication hur?)
but ohwell it was great aft all.
asking mrtan to take part in 'scamming' me dwn?
NAH-AH it wnt work on me! hahaa!

and personA,
it WAS a GREAT surprise.
i mean, who would have ever thought tht you wuld actually BOTHERED,
to spent time to plan all that?
and yes. ur acting skills is getting better -.-
i kenna scammd for the 4th time.
yes im still counting! hahaa.

but really it wouldnt have been a memorable bdae w/o ur 'surprise'.
and i think tht video is humourous haaa.
still, i really appreciate what all youve done!

and yeps, stop thinking so much abt his msg le.
whether he wna 'drop by' its nt up to you to decide.
whether he trusts you its nt you to change either.
even if im nt gna tell you or him when is the election date,
he can still go and ask mrtan directly, cant he?
so i wnt probe abt it anymore.

i dont wan to.

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'kay_: WHOA. sry but im LAZY to reply taggs one by one! hahaa but thanks for all the bdae wishes etcetc. haha take care everyone!

8:46 AM
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